I was talking to the women in my department at work this morning and I go to cross my legs as we’re sitting in an open circle with one another when I spot a huge wad of dog crap on my shoe. Then, I notice another smear of it on my actual skin (strappy shoes *middle finger*). Now no matter how many times I’ve checked and cleaned, I still smell dog shit. Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!
This week has been the week of dog crap. And I just laughed at myself because the big cloud of drama in my life is ALSO literally involving dog crap! Someone I love had a simple outpatient procedure about two weeks ago and was hospitalized this week because she acquired e. coli due to home environment. It’s hard to sit back and watch someone you love live a life like that. It’s like watching them skip slow-motion into a house fire. I’ve dealt with anger, being judgmental and finally just mixed waves of compassion and disappointment. Combine this with conflicting points of view from other loved ones and it’s just sort of flooding everyone’s basement right now.
*whiff of dog shit* I seriously still smell it. WHY
I’ve also had another loved one dealing with a crumbling relationship and the wild roller coaster of emotions that go along with it. It’s a very one-sided struggle and my friend is fighting and fighting while the other just sits back and enjoys watching the struggle. I am a very opinionated person who works very hard on keeping my thoughts to myself (I also pray that God helps me and puts His hand over my mouth as much as possible) and it’s been a lesson in listening because people just want to be heard. I’m not the expert at anything so my advice is not accredited in any way whatsoever and is not needed. Plus, I love fiercely and if you’re not being treated like a king or a queen by your partner, I see red.
This post is not funny or helpful. Shut up.